Part Five.. The Talk
Angel walked into his bedroom where Buffy lay asleep. She awoke briefly after passing out, only long enough for pain killers, and dozed back off.
He watched her. As she lay there in the clothes she had gone to find the demon's in. She slowly began to toss and turn.
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Buffy's Dream: (( The one she had at the beginning of the third season when Angel's in hell... my way.))
She's standing on the beach, watching the ocean waves in and out, in and out. The wind blew softly, and moved her hair and her dress.
Angel came up behind her, and wrapped his arms around her.
"Mmmm How did you find me?"
"If I we're blind I would find you."
"Stay with me ."
"Forever.. thats the whole point, even if you kill me."
Then they we're in a place kinda like the Bronze, or a cafe`. Angel stood a few feet away from Buffy, and he looked at her, at first with fear and betrayal, then with anger and rage.
She stood there, eyes wide.
"I thought you loved me." He said.
"I do... I do Angel."
"Why'd you kill me?"
Then he looked at his hands which we're covered in blood, and then the sword appeared in is belly.
"Are you ever going to remove this thing?"
Buffy broke down in tears.
Then Angel fell to the ground.
"You don't kill the ones you love."
Then he dropped dead.
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"Angel No I do love.. I had to kill you.. I had to!!!"
She tossed and turned.
"ANGEL!!!!!"
By now Angel was at her side trying to wake her.
Tears were streaming down her face when she woke up.
"Oh god." She said as she sat up and looked at Angel.
"You're alive!" She yelled has she jumped on him and started kissing him. Then after a minute she pulled away because reality hit her.
"Sorry."
Angel put his arms around her.
"What happened?"
"Things bag things.. god I hate that dream."
"You've had it before?"
She nodded.
"When.. how many times?"
"I've had it forever... well since I.. I-I killed you. God Angel I'm sp sorry... I'm so sorry."
"Hey don't be sorry, you did what you had to."
"Your.. why aren't you mad?"
"Buffy.. tell me what happened in the dream."
She took a deep breath "I was standing on the beach, and then you came and wrapped your arms around me. I asked how'd you find me, and you told me if you were blind you'd find me, and I said stay with me, and you replied forever thats the whole point not even if you kill me."
"Is that all?"
"No... then.. we we're in a cafe' or something and you looked at me first with fear and betrayal in your eyes, and then with anger and rage.. you said I thought you loved me and I said I do.. and you said why'd you kill me and then you fell to the ground after looking at you hands covered in blood, and the sword was in your belly. Finally you said You don't kill your loved ones. And you died. Angel you died.. again right infront of me, because of me."
She began to cry harder.
"Shhh.. no baby. I didn't die because of you."
"Yes.. yes you did."
"Why do you think that?"
"Because if I hadn't wanted that long goodbye at the docks. Or even later that night... you-you said maybe we shouldn't and I said shh just kiss me, and then Angelus came about."
"You remember all that?"
"I remember everything we ever did. Especially my birthday, and not because Angelus came out because of our actions, but because that was the most wonderful night of my life.. sure somewhat because we made love, but that was everything.. you said you loved me, and I was able to say it back without worry you'd not want me to."
Buffy leaned into his chest. And hit her. She hadn't told Angel about the curse, and he had a right to know. Buffy removed her head from his chest and looked at him, she was about to speak, but was captured in his eyes.
Angel wanted to tell her he loved her and wanted her back. He was going to say something, but then she lifted her head, and they looked into eachothers eyes, their souls.
Angel leaned down and kissed her. A sweet and gental kiss, yet one with enough passion to let her know he wanted her, no more like needed her. And that his life or unlife wasn't worth living unless he had her in it.
Buffy was surprised by the kiss, but excepted, and kissed him back just the same. She needed him, and wanted him. She needed to let him know just how much he meant to her, and that she wasn't complete without him.
Buffy moaned slightly, she missed this. The kissing, the cuddling, the loving. She remembered back at her birthday, how she'd gone to see him before school and things heated up, and she said she had school, but couldn't go, then they kissed again, Angel said she had to go, but they kept kissing until they both broke away, and she knew she had to go.. but later.. they would.
Angel could smell her.. her scent was of vanilla. The memories, her birthday... when he came back. How he wanted her so badly, and now.. he wanted her anymore.. weather it meant soul or no soul. He needed her. Angel began to kiss down her neck, and he heard her moan again. He liked the knowing he could cause her pleasure.
They leaned back on the bed, Buffy on the pillows. In the back of her head she knew what was going to happen. She didn't want to stop, but she had too. He needed to know. He'd be angry if they did this and she didn't tell him. Buffy pulled away.
"Angel.." She whispered.
Angel pulled away, and looked in her eyes. He began to think he took contol, and maybe just imagined the moans.. maybe she had wanted him to stop sooner and he'd only just now heard her.
"I- sorry, I didn't mean-"
Buffy put her finger on his lips.
"Shh.. no.. don't even think it. We both wanted this.. I just really need to tell you something first."
*She's gonna tell she has a boyfriend oh god.*
"Buffy, before you say anything, can I tell you something?"
She nodded.
"I love you so much. I was a fool to walk away, there was more to it then children, and sunlight. Your mother came to see me, and said you were blinded by our love.. that I caused you too much pain and that I had to make the tough decitions for you. I think it started with her wanting you to go off to school. And she also made me start thinking.. what if you soon resented us.. but didn't want to hurt me and stayed with me? Or if you wanted someone else, but couldn't end things with us. I was afriad you'd stop loving me, before I could even concieve the thought of not loving you. But the main thing.. was Joyce said I was holding you back.. and I thought I was. And still do, but if you'll have me.. I want an us again. I don't want to take things slow.. I want to pick up close to where we left off. I know I can't.. I can't make love to you.. but we can find something. I love you, and will do anything to have you back."
Buffy's eyes had unshed tears in her eyes. She looked at him, stared into his eyes. She knew right then and there, that if no.. when she said yes he'd never leave her again. Or even think it.
She flung herself into his arms.
"Of course I'll have you back silly. Love doesn't just stop because a relationship does. Me and you.. we were never over, and never will be over.. there's too much history between us. God I love you so much!"
She hugged him tightly, and he hugged her back.
"You know what this means don't you?"
"What?"
"Angel... you are never ever getting rid of me. I'll be around you forever."
Angel laughed.
"I guess I can deal with that."
Buffy pulled away.
"Now... for what I was gonna say.."
"You have another boyfriend don't you?"
"No silly.. its about you."
He looked at her.
"Go load up the computer, there's a disk in there.. read over it. Then come back..."
"Just tell me."
"No.. oh wait. Do you have strawberries?"
"No.. all I have is ice cream."
"Oh then mister me and you are going to the store."
"What why.. what about-"
She kissed him.
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Then come on."
Buffy grabbed his hand and dug him upstairs
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The pulled into the parking lot, and stopped, Angel was about to get out.
"No.. stay here."
"Why?"
"Its a surprise. Now please give me fifty dollars, and then we can go home, and you can look on the computer.
"Okay.. but hurry."
"Hey.. be patient.. its a good virtue to learn."
"I've been patient for a couple hundred years."
"Been patient for what?"
"You.. I've waited for you, the perfect girl, and the girl or woman is you. So I am done being patient."
"Okay.. I'll hurry."
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Buffy came back out twenty minutes later.
"Okay, lets go home."
Angel pulled out, and drove. He wanted to know what was in the bags, but Buffy kept them well hid.
Once home Buffy went downstairs with Angel following her.
"Okay do the computer thing.. I'll be in the bedroom. Knock before you come in."
"Okay.. but what is this about?"
"Trust me."
She went into the bedroom.
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How Buffy spent the time:
Buffy unloaded what was in the bag and set it all about.
She made Angel's bed, fluffed the pillowed, pulled out candles.. and lit them.. placing them all around the room. She wished they'd had rose's. She'd always wanted 'a bed of rose's' it was one of her many fantancies... one of them that only popped into her head when she met Angel.
*Mmm.. god what did I do to get him?*
Buffy heard a knock on the door. She jumped up, took off her shoes, and jacket, placed them in the floor. Then she stood right behind the door.
"Come in." She said
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Angel's time:
He turned on the computer, and popped in the disk.
He wanted to know what this was about.
Angel clicked on a few things then it came open.
There was a message:
Angel,
I just found this today.But I didn't want to tell you before we fought the demon's. Willow's the one to did this I guess. Although I don't know why we weren't told sooner.. I'm sure theres and explanation. Read on.
He read on, and his mouth dropped to the floor.
Angel could make love to her, and Angelus would come out. He could be human, and be with her in the light, give her children. This was too good to be true.
He got up and went to the door and knocked. There was a pause and then he heard..." Come in."
He turned the nob.
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Buffy was anixous, she wasn't sure if he'd want to do this.. he just found out.. what if he wanted to talk?
*Oh boy.. I hope I don't make a fool of myself.*
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Angel wanted to go in there, put her on the bed and just make love to her. But want if she didn't want to right now? Wanted things to go slow.
*I won't say much.. I'll let her lead see what she wants to do.*
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Angel walked in and saw lit candles every where.. there must have been atleast thirty, the lights were off. He looked up and saw Buffy holding a red one. The way the candles were made her look more divine if possible.
He looked around and saw the items that were in the bag.
Ice cream, fudge, whipped cream, and strawberries.
"I wanted to learn how to body paint." Buffy said with a smile.
Angel looked at her. He stepped forward, moved the candle from her hands and kissed her.
"So you do want to do this right?" Buffy asked after the kiss broke away.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"Just wondering. I know all this stuff you can't taste, but what we're gonna do with it... it'll give you something to look foward to."
Angel laughed and picked up her up and began spinning her around.
"I love you!"
Then he kissed her. She kissed him back.
The made love for the first time since her birthday.
Part Six... Aftermath
Buffy and Angel layed, wrapped in the sheets.. well it only came up to their waists. Angel stroked Buffy's back, as she lay on his chest panting.
She moced her right hand and placed it over where his heart is.. she thought back to the day he took back.
** Thump thump, Thump thump. She played with his chest, where is heart was beating. They both loved this.. being together, and at the time without a worry in the world.**
Buffy sighed "I love you."
"I love you too. Ya know what?"
"Mmm?"
"I think there's still some resadue from the whipped cream on my chest."
"You mean your all sticky."
Angel grinned.
"Yeah sticky."
"You can stay lightened up ya know. Just because your turning human doesn't mean you have to brood all of a sudden."
"I'm not brooding.. I'm thinking about something."
"What?"
"Thanksgiving."
"Oh."
There a silence, and Buffy looked at the clock. 6:34 am. She smiled... they had gone to the store, gotten back, and began to make love by 11:45... she liked this.
"Why don't we call Cordiela and give her, Doyle, and Gunn the day off?"
"The day off?"
"Yeah.. they can do their own thing. And we can do our own thing. I know you really want to me human, but can we wait a couple of days... maybe figure out if the spell is right? I don't want anything to go wrong."
"If thats what you want. I can go see the Orcales... see what they think."
"Okay... that works.. but right now... it's just me and you. We'll call Cordiela in the morning."
"Yea, but until then..." Angel said turning over so that he was on top of her. "We will have fun."
"Really now?"
Angel leaned down and kissed her.
"Ya know what?" She asked.
"Mmmm?"
"I think I have forgotten the type of fun yor talking about.. I think I need a reminder."
Angel grinned.
"What kind of reminder?" He asked kissing her neck.
"The visual.. hands on."
"Will do."
Buffy giggled, and found his mouth again.
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Three hours later:
RING*********RING********
"Hello?" A goggy voice asked.
"Cordiela!, hey, its Buffy."
"What? And why the hell are you so happy?"
"Because I had a good night. Anywa don't come into work today, Angel gives you the day off."
"Buffy pease tell me you didn't give him a happy."
"Lots of them... I did."
Buffy laughed and looked over to Angel who lay in the bed asleep.
"Oh my god we're all gonna die.. God Buffy don't you ever think of others? "
"Cor chill out.. we found out his curse is permanent, and a way to make him human."
Angel awoke slightly and moved his arm across the bed to reach for Buffy, seeing this she moved away, and watched himsquirm trying to find her. He opened his eyes and saw her on the phone.
'Cor..' she mouthed and he nodded.
Angel looked at her. She was only covered in a sheet. He couldn't help himself.
Buffy felt a hand on her thigh, and grinned. She moved her thigh, but he followed.
"Congratulations!" Cordy yelled through the phone.
"Mmmm... yea.. Cor I gotta go.. bye."
Buffy hung up and fell back in the sheets.
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12:30:
By now they had made love on serveral occations. They'd take little naps, and when one them woke up the other one would, and they'd do it all over again. Not once all day, did either get dressed. So far ...
RING*********RING********RING*******
"Hello?"
"Buffy."
"Willow? Hey."
Angel woke up. And grinned.
"Hi... umm did I wake you?"
"No I've been awake."
Angel moved over and stroked her arms, then he leaned and began to kiss her neck.
"Mmmm"
"Buffy are you okay? Were you busy?"
"Yea fine..oooh.. not busy."
"Ohhh.." Buffy giggled "Mmmm... Will.. hey sorry.."
"You found the disk alright I guess."
"You put it there?"
"Yea.. I know I've been acting mean about you two this past month I just don't want you to get hurt again."
"Why didn't I get it sooner?"
"Well because.. it's dated.. the soul.. for Miss Calendar's death. And then the Human one.. well I lost the disk.. and wasn't sure if his soul was really permanent cause I did look at it again until I got the human spell, and I found it a few days ago."
"Thanks mmm.. uh.. I.. I need to-"
"Go.. bye Buffy call me later."
"Yea."
She hung up.
"Your a tease." Buffy said.
"You make it out like its a bad thing."
"It is unless you make up for it."
"Sounds like fun."
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Later that night Buffy lay sleeping. She had finally thrown on a shirt when neither of them could possible go any longer. which was only about an hour ago and it was 11:12 now.
Her and Angel lay on the couch cuddling..watching Muffy the Werewolf Slayer.
"I think this is soo cool."
"Yea it is.. especailly since Sarah Michelle Gellar looks just like you."
"No she doesn't."
"She does too."
"Well atleast this is my natural hair color. Ohh look.. thats David Boreanzas... he looks sooo good. And you too look just alike. I swear."
"Really ya think so?"
"Yep.. even the hair.. Spikes.. which is cool, and wow."
"So you like him better?"
"Nah... I like you.. your the real thing.. besides... your probably a better kisser."
Buffy got her cup of tea and went to sip it... but couldn't. She took off to the bathroom. Angel followed and held her hair as she puked.
Angel heard the lift, and since Buffy was on a break from puking went to see who it was.. he thought it was Cordiela so he began talking like he was to her.
"Hey Cor.. got any pain killers without asprin?"
"Uh.. no why?" the voice asked.
"Your not Cordy."
"No.."
"Hey Kate.. what are you doing here at this hour?"
"I wanted to know if you came up with anything on that file."
"Dammit.. I forgot about it tomorrow.. come by and I will look through it. I there something else?"
"Angel!!!" Buffy yelled, and then puked again.
Angel went to her aid. She had finally finished puking. She clean her mouth and brushed her teeth, then Angel picked her up, and carried her to the bed.
He came back out to Kate.
"Poor kid." She said.
"She probably caught something today."
"Oh.. so I was wondering.. umm would you like to go out to dinner sometime?"
"Umm Kate I don't know."
"Well we can make it a friendly one. I have this cousin that is coming to visit me next week. How about then?"
"I'll see.."
"You can bring someone. It doesn't matter who."
"Okay sure.. I'll give you a call tomorrow okay?"
"Yea sure.."
"Well I need to take care of Buffy."
"Yea okay."
Kate turned and left.
Angel went back into his bedroom and lay next to Buffy. Wishing he knew what was wrong.