Message: 3
Date: Sat, 22 Jan 2000 21:54:21 -0800
From: kathy <[email protected]>
Subject: Doomed: Alternative Ending Part 1

Hey guys, here's my first attempt at a fanfic, hope it's okay.

Kathy :)

Title: Doomed: Alternate Ending Part 1
Author(s): Kathy
Comments: Continuation of Buffy with Riley, at the end of "Doomed."
Disclaimer: Characters and other things belong to the original Buffy people,
not me. The continuation belongs to me though. :)

Buffy lay silent in Riley's arms as they both drifted asleep on the bed.
She felt content knowing that maybe Riley was right, and that life as she
knew it didn't have to hinder her happiness....

The sun shone on Riley's face warming his cheeks, his arms held Buffy
tightly. He was dreaming of life back home on the farm, the plows moving
strategically over the fields, until he heard a horrible shrieking in the
room. It was Buffy, she was crying in her sleep.

"I'll never forget! I'll never forget!" She wimpered. Riley grapped
her and
held her against his body. She felt so frail and small in his arms,
insomuch as he felt that if he held her any tighter her body would turn to dust.

"Buffy! Buffy! Wake up!! Please..." Fear began to consume him, as
Buffy
began to get hysterical. Tears were streaming down her rosy and dewy
cheeks. He could feel her body shaking in his arms, and in a mere moment
she was silent again. He lay her down on the bed, leaned over and kissed
her forehead.

"You are a mystery to me Buffy Summers. What other secrets are you
hiding?"
He whispered as he watched her sleep.

"Riley..." Buffy began to awake. Her eyes slowly opening, seeing the
foggy
image of Riley leaning over her.

"You were screaming....and...and...I couldn't stop...I couldn't stop you
from screaming, and you were crying...and I didn't know...I don't
know...what is going on?" He jumped off the bed, and began to pace the
room.

"Riley, what are you talking about? One minute we're taking a nap, next
minute you're all anxietal hyper-pacing man on me? Think you can slow down a
little and tell me what you're worried about?" She asked him in her usual
Buffy self.

"We were sleeping and then I heard you screaming. You were crying about not
forgeting something...I don't know, but it scared the living daylights out
of me. And then you just stopped, just like that..."

"I don't remember..."

Riley slowly sat back down on the bed, and held her small hands in his...

"Please..."

"I don't remember..." She said again. Her lip quivering and eyes
brimming
with tears...

They just looked at each other...and the room fell silent.

[To be continued...]

Message: 5
Date: Sun, 23 Jan 2000 01:22:10 -0800
From: kathy <[email protected]>
Subject: "Dreams": Continuation of Alternative ending to
"Doomed"

Title: Dreams
Author(s): Kathy
Comments: Part 2 of the alternative doomed endings
Disclaimer: Original characters and other things belong to the original
Buffy people, not me. The rest belongs to me though. :)

[Setting: Giles's Place]

"Giles..." Buffy said softly as she approached her English friend.

"Oh yes Buffy...I was looking at these old spells and I noticed
that...."
Giles stopped in mid-sentence after noticing the distraught look on Buffy's
face. Her eyes were so wide and so distant, that he could not help noticing
that something was bothering her terribly. "Are you alright?"

"I had a dream. Although, I don't know what the dream was. I was with
Riley and..."

"With who? Riley?"

"Yes Giles with Riley. I was with Riley, and I must have dreamt something
horrible. But the thing is that I can't remember, and I've tried to
remember but I can't. Riley said that I kept on repeating that I wouldn't
forget something, but I just can't remember."

"Right...are you sure this dream was important? or was it just a
nightmare?"

"Giles please...I know that it must have been important. I have this
feeling in me that if I could only remember, something horribly important
might be revealed. And although that sounds horrible in itself, I have to
know. What if it has to do with the hellmouth or with Faith, or anything
else horrible that will or has come my way?!" Buffy placed her hands
tentatively on the desk and leaned closer to Giles. "I could never forgive
myself if something happened, and knowing that I could have stopped it from
happening."

"Buffy, you can't always stop everything, and just because you dreamt of
something horrible, doesn't necessarily always mean that it will happen. I
know that your dreams have been helpful in the past, but please Buffy, don't
always trouble yourself this way."

Buffy turned her face away. She began to feel that lump in her throat,
making it harder for her to hold back her tears.

"Giles...I don't know what else to do. I want to be a normal girl. To
have
a normal life. To wake up in the morning and have to worry about being late
for class and about doing poorly on an exam. But instead, everytime I wake
up and everytime I lay myself to sleep I pray that I can be normal."

At that moment, there was a knock at the door. It was Will, Xander, and
their new found companion Spike.

"Oh yes, just what I need... to spend another lovely day with dearest Buffy
and her book-worm buddy." Spike muttered sarcastically as he entered the
room. "Oh how wonderful...a cat...I love cats...Come here
kitty...kitty..."
Spike began to follow the poor animal into the hall.

"Spike...nooooo...." Willow and Xander followed him.

Buffy quickly slipped out the door.

[Setting: At the beach]

Buffy walked sullenly by the waters edge, her feet dragging through the wet
sand as she became lost in her own thoughts. What if Giles was right? Maybe
the dream wasn't anything and that she was only making more trouble for
herself. But what if he was wrong? It couldn't have been nothing, if she
was as upset as Riley had described. If only she could remember.

"You're a hard person to keep up with..." A voice said to her from
behind.
It was Riley. He stood there with worry visible in his eyes. His hair blew
in the wind as he stepped closer to Buffy and kissed her gently.

"What are you thinking about?" He asked anxiously.

"I'm thinking about what happened earlier today. I want to know
more."

"Are you sure that would be a good idea? I mean look what it's done to you
already. Buffy what could be so important to you that would cause you to
pursue such madness?"

"It's the uncertainty. My whole life revolves around uncertainty. I never
know what will happen next, and when it does, it's not usually a pretty
sight. There's much you have to learn about me Riley. Don't paint a pretty
picture of me in your head because it'll only become vulnerable and erased
with time."

"Buffy, don't do this. Don't let things like this make you so distant.
How
are we to be together if you won't let me help you. Let me know you Buffy,
please don't push me away."

She could feel Riley's concern and it touched her to know that he cared that
much for her. And she felt that maybe if he understood, she could learn to
really like him. But to love him, would mean that she would have to let go
of Angel. And she knew that she didn't have the ability to do so, at least
not yet.

With this thought lingering in her mind, she looked at Riley and walked
slowly towards him.

"I don't want to push you away, just give me time." She said this to
him, as
she leaned herself against him, and felt his arms wrap around her body. Her
head was snugged tightly against his chest and she could feel the beating of
his heart.

At that moment, a strange feeling came over her, and for a moment she could
see nothing but blackness. She fell hopelessly to Riley's feet.

"Buffy...Buffy...look at me! are you okay? Buffy?!" Riley grapped hold
of
her arms and shook her lightly. Her eyes stared directly at him, but did
not see him. It looked almost as if she were looking right through him.

There was nothing but silence for awhile, and then her lips began to move as
if she were going to say something, and she did. Riley looked at her in
confusion, and just held her tightly, fearing that he was losing her to her
own mind.

She had whispered "Angel."

[To be continued...]